Exhausted Marionette

The shadows creep

and the rainbows sleep

as you persecute me once again

when I'm in pain

and the clock is ticking

and you're nit-picking

my energy's drained

I'm fighting for my rights

and performing at my all

so the nerve of you to call

me out; defective

when

I am a gem

a precocious autistic

how dare you call me normal

with a broken brain

You could never imagine

what it's like to be me

I want to be free

as who I am

And not be damned

and not be a victim

I am a survivor

unrecognized

Pining to thrive

unseen and unheard

you assume because I have the words

translated patterns from my head...

I've fought sometimes ‘til nearly dead

A miracle in action

I'm credited only a fraction

of what I really do

because I am not you

on my head is your shoe …

I'm battered and I'm broken

and yet with love I stand

you think you've got me figured out

but don't you know these hands

They wring when you're not looking

they flick when you don't see

and after I am finished talking

I run under the trees

I love you, people, but you hurt me

why oh why oh please

if I do not appease..

I am misunderstood; misread

unless I dance

and you throw me bread

or roses, if I'm lucky..

I'm an exhausted marionette, it seems

until you cut the strings

and then you catch me in a net

in which I thought was made for safety

but once again, it is a threat

and that's why I must never fall

or let you cut the strings

because of what it brings

And though I need to rest my body...

there's now a full house lobby

waiting, for staunch advocacy

so they too can be justly freed

beyond the waiting room of that chamber

whence ,I too, sat; then trapped in danger

Through innocence upon the rain

under-appreciated; attacked in vain

on trial for nothing that I'd done

for sociology's perversely come

to blame the honest, pure-hearted

and though from the truth, many run

in the end; it's already won

September 25th, 2012

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