Saturday, December 22, 2012

Meltdown

Wandering along
in a world of reel to reel
trapped inside an analytical brain
with feelings half concealed

Does not compute
but does dispute
what is said; so reputed
felt is so much
and then your touch
can turn me to ice
though I am nice

Pushing to reciprocate
bowing down to replicate
I try so hard..
so do not hate
or is it me that hates it so?

I don't have a bow
upon my head
and sometimes, inside
I am nearly dead
and I just want to lie in bed
and shut it all out
or play my music 'til it
drowns the drought

The hole in my heart
where I need to put art
which would save me and
stop all the demands

For things in which I cannot keep up with
anymore
I want to slam the door
and be j'adore
to art alone

But I cannot completely leave
for I would grieve
the other things I love
though it can be so rough..
I pray to up above

Please, lift this astigmatism
pouring into me, as rheumatism
ravaging my body
from copying the copy
like a hard drive head
with a heart on my sleeve
allergic to the air I breathe
like an alien, shipwrecked

Sometimes it does feel like a curse
of trapped; like feelings in a purple purse
all through my system
and I wish it would stop
I have to pray for the vision
before the raindrops

Fall down my cheeks again
while I'm fighting the process
till I'm rocking and I’m copping
out, like a broken machine
maybe I am now off the beam

Oh, I curse my brain today!
'cause I want to see the way
...I don't want to run away….
but be this way, it may

December 22nd, 2012

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Thursday, December 20, 2012

Where is the key

I'm sorry
I don't understand
you wave your hand
I wave my hand
but your words I don't understand

I speak from commands
inside my brain
and I am vain
and I'm in pain
and the freeze is back
and the speech I lack

My brain is blocked
I cannot see
and I am locked
and where's the key
WHERE IS THE KEY?

Dec 20th, 2012

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Sunday, December 16, 2012

Poinsettia (Diamante)

Floral
Red Petals
Pointed, poignant, leaves
Bright, bold, blossoms
Alongside
The Tree



December 24th, 2012

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Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Gumby

Strung along
like a green string bean
like a Gumby
In a vending machine

Waiting for
the coin to spin
while another pin
pokes into the doll

Rise and fall
And ride
and crawl
and bend and bend

Gumby needs to mend!
or is it that?
or not at all
about the rest

Is it perhaps a test?
just a great big test
to bring out the best
from the boarded chest


December 5th, 2012

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