Monday, October 29, 2012

Decoy

Initiation
devoid
timing and turning
decoy

Stonewalling, artificial haven
stonewalling
calling on the raven

Don't remember how
to do
something all on ones' own
when it's hard
when it hurts
when one's weak
when there's dirt
under the rug
or so feared
that it leers

Guiding light is
devoid
it's only a decoy
to a winding circle trap
going round and round in loops

So where is the loophole
because one can't be seen
there seems no other option
and another day is done and mean

Looking up at a star
that is very hard to reach
steps of fire, 1000 degrees
up with aching knees

Can it be really done
what about lifting a ton
when your child is pinned underneath
what about walking over hot coals

So grit your teeth
no, no, no
that has been done
and they are all broken now
so why not take a bow
and out
and find a different way
but where and how
can it be found
amongst the silent sound

Of the shadows
over fallow
of the devoid
of the decoy

October 28th, 2012
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Sunday, October 28, 2012

Fireflies

Fireflies
flickering by
ping, ping, ping, ping!
it is perfect music

Second there, second gone
light was shone
then the dawn
fell upon

In a box
in a house
be a mouse
scavenging
ravaging
crumbs are all around

There is not a sound
and silence is abound
so is the heart, away
with nothing much to say

Can't see fireflies
that want to dance
that want to play
from night to day
show the way
with pure harmony
passion disarming

Flicker, flicker, flicker
where are you?
thicker, thicker, thicker
is the fog
is the glue

Stuck in the box
glued to the door
can't see out the window
can't understand a bore

Cannot rearrange the chairs
to the wooden table
shadows cannot help
and weakened muscles are unable

Wasting, wasting, wasting
tasting and distaste-ing
basting, basting, basting
without fireflies


October 28th, 2012

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Friday, October 26, 2012

the pattern prime

Reaching for the tools
held onto by fools
who use them for biding by
don't see how to look outside

Of the textbook way
aching by the day
my spine is stiff and still I reach
pain clings to me like a leech

The way out seems barely accessible
must keep saying "my body is a vessel"
pushing to build a special house
where I can be secure and rest
I got, well almost, only me; cleaning up
a seemingly revolving mess

I must have on an invisible cape..
a wonder woman I must be
looking for soil, on mostly arid land
to plant a special kind of tree
little patches hiding here and there
I find and I see
Grateful for the few glimmers of light, and smiles, and eyes noticing
little me
Down here
waving up
smiling politely
while shouting inside
I am no longer on the ride
in which I survived
but a journey appearing graceful

As I walk along, its' erroneously surmised
that I do so uninjured..
though despite it, I must rise
because this is my chance to thrive

And if i keep the balance wise
then the plan could comprise
a healing..
all in dealing

The cards right this time
from the inside;
like the perfect rhyme
the pattern prime

October 26th, 2012

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Tuesday, October 16, 2012

I will push you, oh so gently...

I will push you
oh so gently
I will be there to
encourage your entry

I will never choose for you
or tell you what to love
I won't say "I approve of you if"
or sweep your troubles under the rug

I will not give you the freedom either
to make decisions a kid should not have to make
without guidelines and structure set, in love
I'm firm on what isn't right, what isn't safe

Oh, I wish I was pushed a little bit harder
encouraged to not give up on a such whim
I came to it late, and it would then frustrate

For it doesn't take one day to learn how to swim
and everybody is unique
I want you to know this
and be

Secure with yourself
not inflated or deflated
and true to yourself
striving for what's your best


It doesn't have to be the best "like the rest"
everyone has their own individual tests
it isn't a shame
and there's no one to blame

Everyone has a place
and their own unique face
you are awesome just the way you are
if you are honest and kind

It's ok to think of yourself too
to appreciate what comes to your own mind
I'll never make you feel bad
I'll encourage you to be glad

For yourself and for others
for your sisters and your brothers
and for mother earth too
in respect of father time

With both reason and rhyme
as children of the cosmos
my children, I walk a path
for you..

Though I may, at times, be wary
I am always here for you
whatever is your query
I will not hold a frown
I will not have you feel forgotten
I will not put you down
or make you feel ignored

You should never feel nervous to talk to me
nor should you be ignored
I am aware of not repeating
cycles from my own beginnings
though I too, am imperfect
honest and loving; over losing or winning


October 15th, 2012

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